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2009-03-12T13:59:00.003+06:00

anyway i guess i'll post a poem which i wrote sumtime ago..

~HOPELESS~
stung and beaten by bitterness
enduring pain with no happiness
nuturing this broken heart
shadows of dispair hovering
endless seems this battle
losing every hope and dream
enraged i feel against nature
should I forever be like this???
seeking for a hope a drym thats so far???

19/01/09

2008-10-31T04:31:00.002+06:00

errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr mi va compeh.....
thai kamun heevanee hama thai thalhafiyyeh hen...
takes ages to load a page!!!!!
mivarun kihineh kameh vanee.....

2008-10-29T18:07:00.002+06:00

M BACK AGAIN!!!!

been so long since i posted anything!!!!!
well the thing was the comp broke down n then there was no net i got a litlle bxy with things.
lots of things happened these past days....
most of all i was bsy visiting friends who delivered... guess wht from the 25th of aug to 1st of Oct 7 of my friends gave birth!!!!! ehehe.. it has been fun....
hope to be more regular now tht net is here:D

n here's a special little poem to sum1 special:D

Heart felt smile upon my lips
Always a sweet thought on mind
Picturing a wonderful dream
Planning for a better tomorrow
You & I together, is being HAPPY!!!!

2008-05-11T01:16:00.003+06:00

DON'T LET ME FALL IN LOVE WITH U
Jewel

Don't walk too close
Don't breathe so soft
Don't talk so sweet
Don't sing
Don't lay oh so near

Please, don't let me fall in love with you again

Please let me forget
all those sweet smiles
all of the passion
all of the heat, the peace, the pain
all those blue skies
where your words were my freedom

Please, don't let me fall in love with you again

Too many times
I've cared too much
I stood on the edge
and saw that you held my hand
and knowing too well
I couldn't hide from those eyes

Please, don't let me fall in love with you again

nice song....chek here

2008-05-07T13:30:00.002+06:00

y do people lie so much?????
i jst wonder y sum ppl wanna show off so much n lie so much ... dun they ever realize its such a small world tht we're livin n the lies would be known sooner or later...
really i dun get the point of lteling lies n tryin to be smt u rn't..O.o

2008-05-05T14:12:00.003+06:00

"smile is good cosmetics for beauty" sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo SMILE n let the whole world SMILE with u n stay forever beautiful!!!!

2008-04-26T01:27:00.002+06:00

searching for summer blooms in the cold winter
n when summer comes searches for winter snow
..............................................................

2008-04-25T21:16:00.001+06:00

M BAK IN MALE'
atlaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaast m bak in male'
sweet old home!
:D:D:D:D:D

2008-04-23T20:22:00.002+06:00

ooops...i got this brilliant idea to write a post n whoosh it vanished....bodu fooseh!
hmm..so m here in lanka...as per some ppl lanka is kewl..bt so far i havent found it tht kewl..
n i so hate these street dogs!why do they have to stare n bark when m jst mindin my own business n walkin...
errr i hate DOGS!!!!
today we went to a theatre to see the hindhi movie RACE..it was kewl... with lots of twists n turns...
n the good news is i'll be home soon....
m missin all at home..specially baby!
luve u all..
mwahhhhh

2008-04-15T23:00:00.002+06:00

hmmm..... i've been thinking.... n was wondering if any of u got an idea an idea... to teach sum1 to trust ppl? how can u make a person trust another human??? could it be possible for sum1 to be indifferent to others... i mean like numbing onesself to emotions... maybe holding up anger,tears n frustations make ppl stone hearted.... maybe i've become stonehearted.. bt why is it i feel this aching throbbin pain in my heart.. n sumtimes i feel like with every drop of blood the pain seeps thru my body.................

2008-04-13T02:41:00.002+06:00

BECOMING

And I don’t think I’m ready for you
Yet.
I want to be.
I’m not who I want you to fall in love with.
I have much to learn.
Wisdom to gain, knowledge to come across.
Other relationships to deepen.
How can I expect you to come along soon
when I’m far from ready for you?
I could be passing you by everyday.
You could be across the sea.
Wherever you are…
I’m here.
I am trying.
Trying to be me… trying to become whoever it is I really am… becoming the girl you’ll adore.
Oh, but sweetheart, I am not there yet.
Past the start, moving forward, with a faint image of you in sight… ever so faint.
The time will come and I’ll be ready.
Though, I may not feel ready, we can work things out together.
Because life isn’t all about doing it on your own.
But right now, I’m learning that…
It’s about a journey together, bringing the best out in each other, seeing healing for the worst in each other.
So I wait… I’ll be around, actively pursuing who I am… passively pursuing you.

{Rads} this is smt i came across while browsin n i jst thot i'd put it here... it's so much like wht my heart says......

2008-03-08T10:53:00.002+06:00

hmm... i've been tagged by silent n since i got nuthing to post i thot i'd do this... n so here goes....

A - Available?: depends...

B-Best friend: loads of them

C-Cake or Pie?: chocolate cake!

D-Drink of choice: coke ,coffee n water!

E-Essential thing used everyday: air n eyes

F-Favourite colour: black!

G-Gummi bears or worms: gummi bears!!

H-Hometown: Male'

I-Indulgence: choclates.....slippers n shoes!

J-January or February: lets say January..for a new beginin:D

K-Kids and names: kids r lil angels who brighten our days... n yep i've got the names for my kids-to-be bt lets keep tht a secret..;)

L-Life: life is a teacher....it teaches u love,trust,care,sadness n everyother emotion n things which make ur life!

M-Marriage date: 08/08/08 or 09/09/09 or 11/11/11 i dunno... ehehe

N-Number of siblings: 2elder step bros,2 elder step sises,2 younger sises n 5 younger bros.. Quite a lot eh!!!

O-Oranges or apples: both...

P-Phobias: um..andhiri andhiri thanthan!

Q-Quote: "smile and the whole world smiles with u.. cry n u cry alone"

R-Reason to smile: its easy n it makes others smile:)

S-Season: Rainy season!!!

T-Tag three people: i guess all i knw from blogsphere has done this so i dun have anyone to tag....

U-Unknown fact about me: um..if i tell tht then it won't be an unknown fact anymore..so i'll jst let it be...;)

V-Vegetable you do not like: brinjal...ewwww!!!!

W-Worst habit: hiding my feelings

X-x-rays you have had: head(PNS)

Y-Your favorite food: Salads and almost all kinda sweet stuff

Z-Zodiac: Sagittarius

2008-02-21T19:34:00.001+06:00

I cheated myself
Like I knew I would
I told ya, I was trouble
You know that I'm no good..............

chek out this song of amy winehouse

click here

2008-02-20T02:07:00.002+06:00

i WONDER wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder wonder w o n d e r w o n d e r .................................. errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh!!!!!

2008-02-17T15:24:00.000+06:00

You ask me how r u
Am all good I say
But deep down I feel all wrong
I wonder where did I loose myself
Feels like I lost my soul
I’ve lost my dreams
I’ve lost my hopes
I’ve lost whole of me
M just a body so alienated to my feelings
U ask what have I got to mourn for
I wonder too…I should be happy
But its been so long,I can’t remember how
I been thinking too much
Now I’ve lost track of my thoughts
I sit and try to sort out my troubles
And again get lost in this web of confussion
All I am is an alien to myself

2008-02-13T17:40:00.003+06:00

i just love this song from Namaste London.. hope u guys like it...

main jahaan rahoon
wherever I am
main kahin bhi hoon
wherever I may be
teri yaad saath hai
your memories are with me

Javed Akhtar:
jaane kiski talaash unaki aankhon mein thi
who knows whose search was in their eyes
aarajoo ke musaafir bhatkate rahein
travellers of desire kept looking
jitane bhi woh chale
longer they walked
utane hi bichh gayein raah mein faasalein
longer the way became
kwaab manjil thi aur manjilein khwaab thi
their dream was destination yet destination was unreality
raaston se nikalate rahein raaste
path continued to divert
jaane kis waste aarjoo ke musaafir bhatkate rahein
for what reason traveller of desire kept wandering
main jahaan rahoon
main kahin bhi hoon
teri yaad saath hai
kisi se kaho
onto say someone
ke nahi kahoon
or not to say
yeh jo dil ki baat hai
what is in my heart
kehne ko saath apane ek duniya chalti hai
though apparently world walks with me
per chhupke is dil mein tanhaayi palti hai
yet loneliness engulfs my heart
bas yaad saath haiteri yaad saath hai - 3

main jahaan rahoon
main kahin bhi hoon
teri yaad saath hai

koyi puraani yaad mera rasta roke mujhse kehti hai
a old memory stops my path and says to me
itani jalati dhoop mein yuun kab tak ghumoge
how long will you wander like this in this hot sun
aayo, chalke bitein dino ki chhanv mein baithe
lets sit in the shadow of days gone by
us lamhein ki baat karein
lets talk about that moment
jisme koyi phool khila tha
when a flower blossomed
us lamhein ki baat karein ke
jisme kisi aawaaz ki chaandi khanak uthi thi
when someone's silvery voice reverberated
us lamhein ki baat karein ke
jisme kisi nazaron ke moti barse the
when someone's eyes showered pearls
koyi puraani yaad mera rasta roke mujhse kehti hai
itani jalati dhoop mein yuun kab tak ghumoge
kahin to dil mein yaadon ki
sometime in my heart
ek suli gad jaati hai
pangs of memories dig deep
kahin har ek tasveer bhahut hi dhondhali pad jaati hai
somewhere a picture gets hazier
koi nayi duniya ke naye rango mein khush rehta hai
some enjoy colours of world and are happy
koi sab kuch paake bhi yeh mann hi mann kehta hai
and some even after getting everything say this in their heart

kehne ko saath apane ek duniya chalti hai
per chhupke is dil mein tanhaayi palti hai
bas yaad saath hai
teri yaad saath hai -3

sach toh yeh hai kasoor apana hain
truth is that this is my mistake
chaand ko chuune ki tamanna ki
that I desired to touch the moon
aasamaan ko jamin par maanga
that I asked sky on earth
phool chaaha ki paththaron pe khilein
that I desired that flowers blossom on rocks
kaanton mein ki talaash khoshboo ki
that I looked for fragrance in thorns
aarjoo ki ke aag thandak de
that I wished fire to calm me
barf mein dhundate rahein garmi
that I kept looking for warmth in snow
khwaab jo dekha chaaha sach ho jaaye
that I wished my dream to come true
isaki humko saja toh milani hi thi
of course, I was to get punished
sach toh yeh hai kasoor apana hain
kahin to beete kal ki jadin
sometime roots of past
dil mein hi utar jaati hai
dig deep in my heart
kahin jo dhage tute to malaayen bhikar jaati
sometime a cherished garland breaks apart
koi dil mein jagah nayi, baaton ke liye rakhta hai
some keep space for new things in their hearts
koi apni palko par yaadon ke diye rakhta hai
yet some continue to decorate lamps of memories on their eyelashes

kehne ko saath apane
ek duniya chalti hai
per chhupke is dil mein tanhaayi palti hai
bas yaad saath hai
teri yaad saath hai - 3

2008-02-07T01:08:00.000+06:00

INTEZAAR

i.ntazaar...	Waiting...
merii subaaho.n ko terii shaamo.n ka	my mornings for your evenings;
merii shaamo.n ko tere vaado.n ka	my evenings for your promises;
merii raato.n ko tere khwaabo.n ka	my nights for your dreams;
merii nii.ndo ko terii baaho.n ka	my sleep for your embrace;
merii jazbo.n ko terii chaaho.n ka	my passion for your desire;
bahakii bahakii sii kuchh khataa'o.n ka	for some intoxicated mistake;
khuubsuurat sii kuchh gunaaho.n ka	for some beautiful sin,
i.ntazaar...	I wait...
apne dilbar ka apne hamdam ka apne jaanam ka	for my darling; for my soulmate; for my beloved,
i.ntazaar...	waiting...
surkh phuulo.n se mahaka rasta hai	There's a road scented with red flowers,
dil to mera magar zard patta hai	but my heart is a pale leaf.
paas aa.nkho.n ke sabz ma.njar hai	A verdant landscape unfolds before my eyes;
dil ka mausam to phir bhii ba.njar hai	even so, the season of my heart is barren.
mahaki mahaki sii kuchh hawaa'o.n ka	For scented breezes,
bhiigii bhiigii sii kuchh ghaTaa'o.n ka	for drenching clouds,
i.ntazaar...	I wait...
apne baadal ka apnii baarish ka apne saawan ka i.ntazaar	For clouds, for rain, for the wet season, I wait.
apnii dhaDkan ka apnii saa.nso ka apne jiine ka i.ntazaar	For a heartbeat, for breath, for a life, I wait.
koii badalii kabhii is tarah aa'egii	Eventually, this sort of change will come.
pyaas sadiyo.n kii pal me.n bujh jaa'egii	In a moment, a centuries-old thirst will be extinguished.
tujhko lauTaake merii aagosh me.n	Returning you to my embrace,
dekhna vaqt kii nabaz tham jaa'egii	the pulse of time will be checked.
aisa hone ke kuchh du'aa'o.n ka	In prayers for that to happen,
umr bhar jo mile.n un panaaho.n ka	for such refuge that would last an entire lifetime,
i.ntazaar...	I wait...
tere aane ka tujhko paane ka phir na jaane ka i.ntazaar...	For your arrival, for possessing you, for I don't know what,
i.ntazaar...	I wait...

2008-02-05T20:55:00.000+06:00

DUHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

2008-02-04T18:40:00.000+06:00

SHUT UP!!!!!!
errrrr.... y can't u just leave me alone.... wish these voices in my head would jst shut up!!!!

2008-01-30T01:44:00.000+06:00

ANNOUCEMENT OF THE CENTURY!!!!!!

INNANE MEEHEH BEYNUN VEJJE

VARAH AVAS GOTHEH GA INNANE KUJJEH BEYNUN VEJJE

AGE 25 AND ABOVE
SEX - MALE
HAVING A GUD EDUCATIONAL BACKGROUND
FUN PERSONALITY
MATURE
N WILLING TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITIES
SHUD BE ABLE TO ENGAGE ME IN A GUD CONVERSATION AND NEVER RUN
OUT OF THINGS TO TALK ABT

then TALL DARK N HANDSOME(then aslu looks dun matter)

um.. um... then handhaneh nuvey .. handhaan veema anehka post kollanan

2008-01-24T17:14:00.000+06:00

I WANNA GET PREG!!!!!!
BUT I DUN WANNA GET MARRIED :S:S:S:S

so many of my friends r preg now.. i wanna get preg tooooooooooooooooooo

2008-01-22T22:46:00.000+06:00

DUHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Life Sucksssss!!! Blogesphere Suckssss!!!

No One even missed me?!?!?!
ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

2008-01-04T20:51:00.001+06:00

Sarah McLachlan - Good Enough

Hey your glass is empty
It’s a hell of a long way home
Why don’t you let me take you
It’s no good to go alone
I never would have opened up
But you seemed so real to me
After all the bullshit I’ve heard
It’s refreshing not to see
I don’t have to pretend
She doesn’t expect it from me

Don’t tell me I haven’t been good to you
Don’t tell me I have never been there for you
Don’t tell me why
Nothing is good enough

Hey little girl would you like some candy
Your momma said that it’s ok
The door is open come on outside
No I can’t come out today
It’s not the wind that cracked your shoulder
And threw you to the ground
Who’s there that makes you so afraid
You’re shaken to the bone
And I don’t understand
You deserve so much more than this

So don’t tell me why
He’s never been good to you
Don’t tell me why
He’s never been there for you
Don’t you know that why
Is simply not good enough
So just let me try
And I will be good to you
Just let me try
And I will be there for you
I’ll show you why
You’re so much more than good enough...

this is a nice song.. thot i'd share it with u guys... click here to listen n see the song
hope u all like it :D

2008-01-04T20:45:00.001+06:00

SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET

2007-12-29T17:15:00.000+06:00

DUH!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

scream scream at me...:S or lemme screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeam

2007-12-28T02:46:00.000+06:00

PAIN HAS TAKEN OVER ME
reality ? n whts tht?
feelings? only a name upon lips
happiness joy loneliness sadness
pain has taken over all

i no longer smile cox i m happy
no longer tears stream down my face
no longer do i need a reason to live
for this pain has taken over

bit by bit i feel my heart shatter
n in everypiece the pain throbs
with each drop it runs thru these veins
n this pain takes over

2007-12-23T01:48:00.000+06:00

ummm... i wanna write a lot bt nuthin worth writin comes to mind.....
DUH! my brain is sooo uncreative nw...

hmm... today i was at office n a thot came to mind.... y do parents interfere with the childrens marriage and love life.. aint it the kid who has to live this person whom they marry aint it the right decission to give the kids a chance to find their partners...... i knw sum gals personally who r married to guys of their parents choice or to sum1 whom they don't love jst becox their parents didn't approve of the person they love...n knw wht?? they r so unhappy n they kinda like have affairs....or lets say they flirt around n mess armd.... bt r they to blame?? it wudn't have happened if in the first place they cud have got the guy they loved.. i guess....
wonder whether the parents be happy knowin how their kid suffers??? wudn't it have be nice to see their kids happy with the person they love.. or maybe the guy/gal is bad..bt wudn't it be better for the person to find it herself.. um i dunno.... y does everythin in life has to be soooo damn complicated...
i dun think ppl wud be gettin wht i wrote even

2007-12-08T22:32:00.000+06:00

hmmmm so m here for a while.....nets down and i miss bloggin and readin blogs mostly....rather than chattin even... MISS U ALL U SWEET BLOGGERS....
n hmm todays my b'day n it feels so VAi.. errr....dhen dhaneee... tc mwah.. hope to see u alll sweet bloggers soon:D mwah

2007-11-15T00:36:00.000+06:00

TADAAA!!!!!!!
I GOT A NEPHEW A NEPHEW!!! MY first very own nephew :D:D:D
at last after 16hrs of labor fahari got a cute baby boy at 4:44 in the morning of 14th nov 07'
he is soo cute bt i wanted a girl anyway he looks really cute n he is my first nephew

2007-11-11T03:23:00.000+06:00

m kinda bxy these two days.... my fahari is admitted at the hospital .... gonna have her baby soon.. can't wait to see the baby.... bro, bodumomma and most ppl r sayin she gonna have a boy.. bt i'd say a gal till she delivers a boy..eheh....
anyway got to go sleep n be fresh for tomorrow mornin... nitynite all:D

2007-11-09T03:16:00.000+06:00

Allahumma!!!! i didn't even knw when i had posted my 100 post.. pspsps heybalivefa mi indhevenee.. dhenme mi reykaalee... pspsps...O_o

2007-11-08T18:20:00.000+06:00

i sit here my eyes teary
bt they refuse to fall down
i bit my lips
i hurt myself
i wanna let these tears fall
let this pain go
if only the claws of hurt would let go
i get furious
y y can't i even cry
y can't i let these tears wash away a bit of this agony
one by one lines from songs run thru my mind
cry me a river....
wud u wud u cry me a river
so i can wash off this hatred
wud u....
m i not allowed to smile
m i banned from love if not
y can't i let myself feel love
y i m i having such a hard time finding love
um.. i jst wish oneday this wud all go
death wud take me..
n for once be free
of saddness,loneliness
and this feelin of nothingness

2007-11-08T17:18:00.000+06:00

boys bunaane girls ey goahee... girls say boys r..... bt actually its not boys or girls... its like hama goas meeheh goahee... i've met such great loving caring boys n also seen such unfaithful umm... wht do i say "bitches" even.. so it actually aint boys or girl is bad.....
wht do u say???

2007-11-03T03:40:00.000+06:00

LOVE WILL COME THROUGH!!!

"love wil come through"
runs in my mind
will my dreams come true
if i tell you, you're mine
are your feelings numb
or is it me whose dumb
to think of you as falling rain
that could wash away my pain
i am waiting for the sunset
that would put this hurt to rest
and dreaming of a sunrise
that would be of suprise
with you beside to make it real
and together we would heal
for it's you and i together i see
till death do us apart i shall be

03/11/07

2007-11-01T13:24:00.000+06:00

IF U CUD BE.....
i was wonderin if i cud be anything other than human wht wuold i be....
i wanna be a butterfly!
they r so beautiful cute and nice n brings so much joy to little kids and elder people too.
n they have such a small life span!

so tell me if u all cud be sumthing other than human wht wud u be n why???

2007-10-31T18:24:00.000+06:00

last night went to a wedding of a close friend from school....
she looked so pretty...:D
and met some old friends too...:D
it was nice to see them all... had a nice tym
n the food was grt!

n the other thing was everyone was askin when is my turn *hnph*
i told them all.. soon after all everyones gettin married.. i'd get married too soon;) eheh

2007-10-28T17:30:00.000+06:00

i been searching for this song since 2005 i think.. they used to show this sound track of the movie ORIGINAL SIN which i loved... bt hadn't been able to get it.. and after so much work i found the song on youtube and after trying to dowload the song i cudn't so at last i asked a friend and he got it for me :D... i jst love this song.. so thot i'll share it with u guys:D hope u all like it.... click here to see the song :D

You Can't Walk Away From Love

Gloria Estefan

Here I am before you
Naked in your eyes
Hoping with each kiss
You will never see through my disguise
I have been made to believe
That no one could love me for me
The good and the bad First to the last
No matter the cost No matter the past

Your eyes only see what they wanna see
Your heart makes the truth what you want to believe
Passion turns pain into ecstacy
You can`t walk away from love
Loving you more than I do myself
Revealing the things I would never tell
Daring to risk even life itself
You can`t walk away from love

There will be no other
Lips against my skin
No need to regret
How can pleasure ever be a sin
I tried to make you believe
You meant almost nothing to me
Through all the lies Chasing a dream
Finding at last
The woman in me

Your eyes only see what they wanna see
Your heart makes the truth what you want to believe
Passion turns pain into ecstacy
You can`t walk away from love
Loving you more than I do myself
Revealing the things I would never tell
Daring to risk even life itself
You can`t walk away from love

2007-10-26T02:38:00.000+06:00

Main toh jiya na mara
I’m neither dead nor alive

Hai ve das main ki kara
Oh lord, what do I do?

Dil jude bina hi tut gaye hath mile bina hi chhut gaye
Hearts broke before they could join, hands parted before they could meet

Ki likhe ne lekh kismet ne
What has fate written for me?

Baar baar rod akhiyan tainu jo na vekh sakiyan
Tears rain down continuously without a glimpse of you

Khole aaye aaj kudrat ne
Even nature commiserates with me

Kataan main ki ve din teri soth tere bin
How do I pass the days and nights without you?

Main toh jiya na mara
I’m neither dead nor alive

these verses r from the song jag soona soona lage from the film om shanti om....
i jst love this song... if u guys wanna chek the song click here but unfortunately the real videop of the song is not there..still hope u guys like it too....

2007-10-22T01:55:00.000+06:00

TRAPPED
i held out my hand
thinking u wanted to take it
i smiled so bright
feeling u wipe away my tears
i opened my heart
thinking i heard u knock

yet tonite i realized....

u never wanted to take my hand
u jst pushed me away
u never wiped my tears
u only made me shed more
u were not knockin in my heart
it was jst my heartaching

n now i realize....
how stupid i was,
i fell jst straight
in your trap!!
22/10/07

pic: i think devianart...been so long i had it..i forgot:|

2007-10-20T21:52:00.000+06:00

Tonight I Wanna Cry

Keith Urban

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with this pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

* aint this song nice?? hope u guys like it too
chek the video here

2007-10-20T00:22:00.000+06:00

original pic dunno where i got it..it was in my folders

2007-10-05T01:53:00.000+06:00

BE SOMEBODY

Bright day light or darkness of night
Entrapped i am in this fight

Serenity is what i'm wishing for
Often i dream of a prince
Mighty enough he fights to make me please
Envelope myself in his happiness
Bring so much joy tht i'd forget
Only zenith that i would feel
Dancing with glee i would heal
You be my somebody that's my dream

2007-10-02T02:49:00.000+06:00

GUESS WHT! I MET A BLOG FRIEND!!

i was feeling so bored and he came online n i said hi... n we strated talkin n he was sayin lets go for a coffee or smt... n i was bored so i thot y not so guess wht.. i said yes n i met this friend...
a blogger..;) bt i used to knw him way b4 then bloggin....bt we've never met and tonite atlast we met

thnx dear....it was nice meetin u in person:D n u made my nite:D

2007-10-01T02:39:00.000+06:00

ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH......
i so hate everythin.... i hate life... i hate male'... i hate home.. i hate this world..... n i hate this blog things even....
ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-10-01T01:39:00.000+06:00

ONCE AGAIN......
jst as i got comfortable in my space
with the walls erected aound me
away from anticipation and hope
once again i got used to this skin
and then u came to my world
with my might i tried to put you off
but with your charm you carried on
bit by bit you broke my resolve
and jst when i started to trust you
uncertainity started webbing around
no longer do i se your charm
no longer do i want to trust
cox my heart tells me you'd do the same
once again leave me battered and bruised
for i know your words are just words
sweet it maybe but like poison it kills
and once again i'd be in bits and bits
03/09/07

pic:fotosearch i guess

2007-09-30T00:35:00.000+06:00

WAITING.....

Moonlight bathing the sea in silver

Soft cool breezes caressing my skin
Wave upon wave making music
But it brings no joy to my heart

Blue sky with fluffy white clouds
Sun shining sending cheerful rays
Birds chirping with happy sounds
yet my eyes see no beauty

Couples walking hand in hand
familes gathered for heartfelt joy
all around there is happiness
yet my smile dies upon my lips

I sit and wonder what to do
what do I want to make my heart leap
for my eyes to see this worlds' beauty
for my smile to touch my heart.......
29/09/07

pic: devian art

2007-09-27T21:14:00.000+06:00

hmm.. so here i was chattin with sum friends n i asked this girl hows life n she says life is pretty gud now tht the mind is free of worries .... n so i ask her how u do tht .. n she says no boys means no worries o ehehe n tht made me think... thts not quite true cox with boys or no boys things always bothers me... one thing or the other is always run in my mind.....its like its always on work 24/7....hmm so i jst wonder can be done to make u stop thinkin n worryin????????

2007-09-24T07:06:00.000+06:00

pffffft!!!!! i so hate this...... errrrrrrrr..... it's 6 in the mornin n m all awake n can't sleep n i have mornin duty tomorrow n my headaches .... urgh.......i'm feelin so angry at myself.... n kinda destructive tooo... i want to smash all the glassess!!!!! :S

2007-09-13T03:00:00.000+06:00

RAMAZAAN MUBARIK

wishing all a prosperous month of ramazaan
may we all be blessed in this holy month of ramazaan

RAMAZAAN MUBAARIK TO ALL

2007-09-10T22:02:00.000+06:00

errr...m having such a big headache n my whole body aches..
i jst wish bodubappa was there to heal my headache like he always did...

n today i remember him so much... the things he used to do...
how sweet he was... how gentle n caring he was.... he was a good man

i remember when we were small n when the slippers were all thrown about near the door he would call n make us strighten it up.... n guess wht now when slippers r like tht i get so irritated n straighten them,,, he taught us good manners n how to care and love...

i jst soo miss him
n i can't belive it's one year today since he passed away...

May Allah bless his soul n may he rest in peace

LOVE U SOOOO MUCH BODUBAPPA!

2007-09-03T01:41:00.000+06:00

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1

one,two,three,four,five
feels like m not alive

six,seven,eight,nine,ten
would u make me alright again

ten,nine,eight,seven,six
little by little can u fix

five,four,three,two,one
n i'll be yours when u're done
03/09/07

2007-09-01T04:17:00.000+06:00

"A blessed thing it is for any man or woman to have a friend, one human soul whom we can trust utterly, who knows the best and worst of us, and who loves us in spite of all our faults."
Author: Charles Kingsley

i wonder when i'd find tht person whom i cud trust........

2007-08-28T13:58:00.000+06:00

YOU!!!!

i crave, i crave for u
a bit of u to make me go
a bit of u to make me flow
a bit of u to make me feel
a bit of u to make me real

please for once be with me
make me cry like fallin rain
washing away this sorrow and pain
or make me laugh forever
like i have knwn no pain ever

28/08/07

2007-08-27T13:44:00.000+06:00

Love Will Come Through

Travis

If I told you a secret
You won't tell a soul
Will you hold it and
Keep it alive

Cause it's burning a hole
And I can't get to sleep
And I can't live alone
In this life

So look up, take it away
Don't look da-da-da-down
The mountain

If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return
Anyone, anything, anyhow

So take me, don't leave me
Take me, don't leave me
Baby, love will come through
It's just waiting for you

And you stand at the crossroads
Of highroads and lowroads
And I've got a feeling
It's right

If it's real what I'm feeling
There's no make believing
The sound of the wings
Of the flight

Of a dove, take it away
Don't look da-da-da-down
The mountain

If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return
Anyone, anything, anyhow

So take me, don't leave me
Take me, don't leave me
Baby, love will come through
It's just waiting for you

Oh, look up, take it away
Don't look da-da-da-down

If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return
Anyone, anything, anyhow

So take me, don't leave me
Take me, don't leave me
Baby, love will come through
It's just waiting for you

Love will come through
Love will come through
Love will come through

if u wanna listen n check the video click here

*This song is dedicated all the broken hearts......

2007-08-26T20:51:00.000+06:00

!? !? !?
life seems soooooooooooooo damn boring... everything so routine..... i jst wish i cud get away frm everything.... feel like m gettin sucked into this big hole of frustration,the unknown... this darkness is takin over me... i jst want awhile for myself to figure out my life....jst wish i cud runaway to sumwhere so serene n peaceful where i cud heal this battered soul of mine......i just wish................. . . . . ....

2007-08-22T02:07:00.000+06:00

LET ME.........

come to me or let me stay
stay by you so u don't stray
u may think the world is grey
but let me show u the other way

take my hands or let me hold
in this embrace thts never cold
i won't let the darkness fold
Oh! hold my hand and be bold

hug me close or let me kiss
kiss the pain and make bliss
for its ur smile i can't miss
n me with u forever, i promise

22/08/07'

pic taken from a screen shot of a song from youtube..

2007-08-19T12:35:00.000+06:00

SOMEBODY'S ME

Enrique Iglesias
Album: Insomniac (2007)
Song: Somebody's Me
Lyrics:

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I refell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you were somebody else

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night taht our paths will soon cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me

this is such a nice song!!!!! i LURVE this one
to listen to this song chek here

2007-08-06T19:05:00.001+06:00

CLEAN ME!!PATCH ME!! PAINT ME!!

brooms n mops

come sweep off these sorrows

dry these falling tears

come make me clean of this fears

gluestick gluestick

help me put these pieces together

bind them hard so they won't shatter

come help me out of this matter

paintbrush paintbrush

color my world with happiness

blue yellow greens and whites.

come paint my face with smiles

06/08/07'

2007-08-05T02:30:00.000+06:00

IGNORANCE

she stood with her grace

her poise her beauty her charms

yet she never knew to value

who valued and treasured her most

can't she c thru his eyes

the vast ocean of love that resides

can't she feel it in his touch

how much he thinks n cares

and like a kid mopping for love

a bit of care a bit of attention

he waits head n foot on her

yet with her ignorance n anger

she make him die a hundred deaths

when all he tried was make her smile

y can't sum ppl realize they're blessed

with such a love tht others dream of

if only one day he wud be loved

like how he should be loved

*this one is dedicated to sumone i knw who loves his gf so much... yet..............

y does love happen to be so painful????

2007-08-02T02:03:00.000+06:00

i've been tagged tooo......... so here i go.....

Three things I can't do

1. express wht really is in my heart
2. stay angry with sumone for too long
3. kill someone

Three things I can do…

1.make friends easily
2.smile and laugh alot...(when i say alot i MEAN ALOT!) ehehehe
3. hmm wht else.......um..um....learn things pretty fast:D

Three things that scare me ….

1. darkness
2. ewww rats
3.angry people :|

three things I hate …

1. liars
2. smelly foreigners
3. greeeeeeeeeeeens n thoraaaa yuck yuck...

FINITO!......

m gonna tag zaavy, manippulhu and niish

2007-08-02T01:31:00.000+06:00

M BACKKK

HIIII all....
m bak...
there was no net connection.... hope to update here n check all other blogs soon..
tc alll
missed blogging n reading blogs!!!!!!

2007-07-16T00:07:00.000+06:00

RANDOM THOTS.....

eyes search for someone

yet i can't decide wht i want

ears yearn for a voice

yet i can't decide wht i want

body aches for an embrace

yet i can't decide wht i want

u tell me i m all tht u want

bt i can't decide wht i want

...........

2007-06-28T01:39:00.000+06:00

BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANK???

a thousands things run in my mind

a thousand feelings in my heart

i sit here trying to write

wht i feel deep inside

yet no words come out right

for me to ever describe

all thts in my heart n mind.........

2007-06-16T18:19:00.000+06:00

hmm....i wanted to post something bt nuthings coming to my mind.....

life seems a bit too routine and stagnant now.......

like this pic thts been captured by the cam.....

2007-06-08T16:15:00.000+06:00

ALONE I STAND.........

2007-06-06T10:26:00.000+06:00

ANOTHER DEATH AT MAAFUSHI JAIL!!!

the news tht greeted me early in the mornin today was .. tht some ppl had broken down IGMH Casualty and Labor Room door cox another dead body was brought from maafushi jail....
bt i wonder did anything get solved when they broke down IGMH... infact it wud make more problems to the locals i guess..... anyway if ppl shud really breakdown some place maybe they shud breakdown police station or MNDP.... or better all cud get together and go to maafushi and break down the jail!!!!

where is the peaceful male n o w???
is peace jst a word we hear in our national songs only????

I HATE WHT THIS MALDIVES HAS COME TO!

2007-06-06T03:18:00.000+06:00

WILL U????

Will u take me in your arms

when i'm confused and sad

will u kiss and make me smile

when i'm angry and hurt

will u really listen to me

when i make no sense at all

will u lie awake beside me

when i have trouble sleeping...or

will u sing me a lullaby

and put me to sleep

will u still be by my side

when i open my eyes each morning

will u promise to be there

till my last breath

cox darling

it's not for a moment i want u

i want u for whole my life!!!!

06/06/07

2007-06-04T03:40:00.000+06:00

ummmm...smt is wrong with my user i think.... when i try uploading a picture in my user...it doesn't come.. now i used another user on the pc and look it's there :S.....uh oh!!!! wht happened to my user!!!!! ::O

2007-06-04T03:34:00.000+06:00

MY FAVOURITE FLOWER!!!!!

2007-06-03T13:52:00.001+06:00

errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!
somethings damn wrong with my blog......
i can't upload any pics..... errrrr

2007-06-03T13:04:00.000+06:00

WHAT HAVE I BECOME???

Happiness
Contentment
Cheerfulness
Delight and pleasure
Emotions long lost

Heartfelt smiles
Melodious laughter
Wrinkles at the eyes
And joy in heart
An Act long forgotten

Trust
Faith
Expectation
Belief and hope
Words with no meaning

Barren
Lonesome
Bitter and souless
A body with no life
Is what I've become.....

02/06/07'

2007-05-30T18:18:00.000+06:00

You may point fingers
Often sneer and smirking at me
Ungrateful you say I am

All your tricks all your false smiles
Reminiscing you are, in pure pretense
Enslaved you are more than me

All through and through I may be drenched

Loathing my surrounding and loathing you
Oblivious to happiness and cursing life
Tripping and falling I try making my way

Look at me and look at yourself
Inside you will see we are the same
Kindled by the fire of hatred
Entrapped in a well of remorse

My sin is I show my true self
Envy me if u want but you are a lot like me
30/05/07

2007-05-27T23:57:00.000+06:00

LOVE U ALL!!

this songs from carrie underwood.... n this one goes for all those i love .. to all my family n my friends.......the words maybe borrowed bt i really do mean every word... i mite not say how much i love each of u.. bt i want all of u to knw u each mean a lot to me.. u are pieces of my life n if i lost any one of u i'll be incomplete... LOVE U ALL!!!!

I'll Stand By You
Carrie Underwood

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now.
Don't be ashamed to cry, let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you, you don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess could make me love you less
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,I
'll stand by you.
So, if you're mad get mad, don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide? I get angry too
But I'm alot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads, don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along, cause even if your wrong
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
Take me into your darkest hour, and I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you.
And when, when the night falls on you baby, you're feeling all alone,
You won't be on your own, I'll stand by you. I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you. I'll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour and I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you.

2007-05-20T03:05:00.000+06:00

AND SHE WAITS....

seasons come, seasons go

but in her place she awaits

counting time as the clocks go

holding on to memories long lost

amongst the sadness there was a hope

at the end of the darkness a light shone

in spite of the falling tears a smile came

making her dream of a future serene

yet once again she got battered

beaten by hopes and love she dreamt

shattered her heart her soul her being

leaving her with memories to attain

and now she sits there by the door

hoping to see a shining face

to lighten up her dark world

to heal her wounds and to make her whole....

19/05/07'

2007-05-16T01:20:00.000+06:00

THIYA LOABIVAAGE LOIBAH - Ali Rameez

thiya loabi vaa ge loibah, edhigen mi hiyy ronee ey
thiya khyaalugaa magey hiyy, kudhi kudhi vegen dhany ey
thiya loabi vaa ge loibah, edhigen mi hiyy ronee ey
thiya khyaalugaa magey hiyy, kudhi kudhi vegen dhany ey
thiya loabivaage loibah

thiya reethi kan....... nufilaa veyey hithun
thiya nan dhulun....... kiyamey kiyaa hithun
thiya noon faraathakah hiyy..... dhey hiyy nuves vany ey
thiya khyaalugaa magey hiyy.... kudhi kudhi vegen dhany ney
thiya loabi vaa ge loibah, edhigen mi hiyy ronee ey
thiya khyaalugaa magey hiyy, kudhi kudhi vegen dhany ey
thiya loabivaage loibah

feneyey kalaa...... merunas dhelo magey
bunedheyn ladhun..... vaa var romey ingey
hunnan vumun, migothugaa veynaa hithaama libeyey
thiya khyaalugaa magey hiyy kudhi kudhi vegen dhany ey
thiya loabi vaa ge loibah, edhigen mi hiyy ronee ey
thiya khyaalugaa magey hiyy, kudhi kudhi vegen dhany ey
thiya loabivaage loibah

la la la laa laa hmmhmm hmmhmm la lalalalalaa

i heard this song while i was in addu n i kinda fell in love with this song... : n so here i thot i'l post this one :D

2007-05-14T02:50:00.000+06:00

MISS U.........

miss u...... now tht u've gone from my life..... i miss havin u here....:

ajeeb dhasthaa hai yeh... kahaa shuroo kahaa khatam????

2007-05-11T22:23:00.000+06:00

A THOT IN MY HEAD

wind caressin my face

waves kissin my feet

i walk towards u

ur hair flyin about in the wind

ur arms wide open for me

ur lips curved in to a smile

makes my heart beat faster

i slowly run in to ur arms

embracing u tightly to me

whisperin in ur ears
don't ever let me go!!!!

2007-05-09T02:53:00.000+06:00

hmmm.....m bak in male' now....
m missin addu n the fun now...wish i cud have stayed for a bit longer... bt kya kare... have to go to office!!!
anyway i had a grt tym in addu.... quite memorable trip.... n m hopin to make another trip for a longer while..:D insha allah
aww.... m missin all in addu...
oki me off to bed now... very very tired n i got a heavy day ahead...
tc

2007-05-06T21:38:00.000+06:00

ONCE AGAIN I M TRAPPED!

there u sat in front of me
silently i watched u
the way ur hair curls at ur nape
the hair touching at ur ears
ur face a bit too serious
y is tht u dun smile often
don't u knw u have a nice smile
its nice to see u with the lil ones
u act like one n u seem like one
though at times u behave like none
secretly i watch ur moves
waiting to hear ur voice
but when u come there she waits
n i realize i got trapped
once again i m hurtin myself
n i ask myslef...
why do i always fall for the wrong person???
8:45pm

2007-05-05T06:08:00.000+06:00

A MEMORY I CHERISH!!!
a simple u i met that day
a simple u ruled my life
a simple u taught me to smile
u made me happy with ur presence
u made me smile with ur smile
u made me know i had a heart
u taught me how to love
u never knew how i loved u
u never knew how i lived for u
maybe i was unlucky to have ur love
but seeing u today made me happy
u made me smile once again
though u never were mine
i m happy i got to know u in this life
i m glad i loved u with all i had
n now u're jst a memory i cherish!!!
2:50 am

2007-04-30T15:27:00.002+06:00

long time no post dho... been a lil bxy... n m not in male' now...
yoo hoo... m in addu.... havin loads of fun....
this place so very different from the bxy bxy male'... so calm n so serene... n nite is so much lovelier.. the moon light billions of stars.... wow sooo nice:)
yesterday went for a lorry ride to see hithadhoo... eheh one new unforgettable experience... we had put the joali n chairs at the back of the lorry n we went for the ride... :D

though its fun here i kinda miss home... miss u sis n tell all at home i miss them....

oki i'll post something else some other tym.. biibii for now...

2007-04-21T17:32:00.000+06:00

awwww... m havin a bad throat pain......not throat maybe... neck pain.. can't even swallow or move my head abt... and my ear aches too and frm all those fun of yesterday my whole body aches....

anyway the memory of yesterday brings a smile upon my lips..... when we were coming bak to male' it was already dark and the sky had a crescent which always reminds me of the cat in alice in wonderland... cheshire cat.. ehe it looks like his smile..

the whole sky was so dazzling with all the stars and the sea too had lil star like things when the boat treaded thru the water... it was jst amazing

oki i think i'll go rest a while

my neck hurtssss:(

2007-04-21T03:03:00.000+06:00

yeterday wasn't a grt day for me.... bt i've realized i shudn't mope abt it n be sad.... it hurts bt it wud wear out.... i'd be ok.... n i guess i already am makin progress.... the picnic was nice had a grt tym with my friends n the nature refreshed my soul:)
anyway we shud always try new things n see wht happens.. so i gave a try n it didn't work out tht doesn't mean i shud give up living dho... i was quite happy on my own before even so i' can be happy on my own again... n i got my lovin family n friends to help me smile:)
life is full of up n downs n so oneday i'll eventually reach the up again n for the tym bein... i'll stay down n see wht goes on....
insha allah things wud turn better for me for u n for all :D

2007-04-20T02:16:00.000+06:00

errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.................
i need to sleeeeeep..... yet sleeeeeeeeeeeeep aint comin...
tomorrow goin on a picnic with office mates... bt dun feel like goin bt they all want me to come so m goin
hope it wud make me feel better...
atm.. i hate life... i hate myself...

2007-04-19T11:32:00.000+06:00

BROKEN ONCE AGAIN

broken and battered i was
u tried with love to heal those wounds
yet i ran away from u
away from all i nursed my broken heart
days passed by n the memories
i kept close n i learnt to smile
u thrived n blosomed from within
i gave up and walked back to u
in hope u wud mend me more
yet i felt ur love had gone
n then u said u didn't love me like u did
though i knew tht all along
but to hear u say so ....
my healing heart broke once again
deep down i feel this pain
with each drop the pain moves thru my vein
n i feel as the blood wud fall as tears
19/04/07' 10:30 am

2007-04-19T03:34:00.000+06:00

WEB OF COMPLICATED FEELINGS

there he waits at my door looking at me but why is it i feel like he dun really see me.... he bids me gnite n hugs me yet i dun feel m home... he says he loves me and i guess it's true yet why is tht he doesn't make me feel complete.... i knw i love him too.. but why does it feel so difficult to open up kick bak n relax around him.... i guess i'll never knw

n there's him i dun really have to say anything to him yet he undertsands me and i feel so carefree n myself when am around him. i dun have to hold back anything i want to say maybe i like him.... or um.... i dunno one thing is sure.... if i dun see him or talk to him i feel moody... and sometimes i feel something in him too. yet he never really says tht..maybe its for the best.. i surely dun wanna loose his friendship.... or maybe he thinks the same... sometimes i find myself thinking of the wht ifs..yet i wonder is it really worth loosin my guy...

hmmm.... wonder why relationships have to be so complicated and difficult.......

2007-04-16T09:05:00.000+06:00

Here by Me
3 Doors Down

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can’t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

As the days roll on I see
Time is standing still for me
When you’re not here
I’m sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

x2
And everything I have in this world
And all that i'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

i love this song n i wanted to dedicate this one to someone...
so here.. this one's for u:D

2007-04-15T03:47:00.001+06:00

WRITING IN SAND OR STONE

TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING THROUGH THE DESERT.DURING SOME POINT OF THE JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE IN THE FACE.

THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING,WROTE IN THE SAND:TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

THEY KEPT ON WALKING,UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,WHERE THEY DECIDEDTO TAKE A BATH THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.

AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM THE NEAR DROWNING,HE WROTE ON A STONE:"TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE ".

THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU,YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW, YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?"

THE FRIEND REPLIED"WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING GOOD FOR US, WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE WHERE NO WIND CAN EVER ERASE IT."

LEARN TO WRITE

YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

THEY SAY IT TAKES A MINUTE TO FIND A SPECIAL PERSON, AN HOUR TO APPRECIATE THEM, A DAY TO LOVE THEM, BUT; THEN AN ENTIRE LIFETO FORGET THEM

*this is a mail i recieved today... thot of sharin this with all of u :D

2007-04-13T03:48:00.000+06:00

ooh la la.... jst finished watching a sweeeeeeeet movie.... the holiday.... it was a grt movie.....some scenes were so touchin...aww..... i wish i had someone who'd love me like tht.... ;)

hmm... i think i'll go try sleep now... got a bxy day ahead...errr.... friday!! i hate workin fridays.... all at home havin fun n me stuck at office..errr foohi foohi!!!

oki everyone have a nice weekend!

tc...bibii

2007-04-11T04:03:00.000+06:00

UNTITLED.....

“I love you” he whispered, his hands embracing my shoulders and his eyes fixed on my face. I felt like I was drowning in those caramel brown eyes. It was jst like the dreams… him telling me he loved me… those words I so wanted to hear. I slowly moved my lips to tell him I love him too but he didn’t wait to hear what I was going to tell. He gave me a tight hug “I am so happy today… Reesh finally told me she loves me”
Reesh??? Love??? Oh me… he didn’t love me…how can I forget that I am just his best friend but I love him so much….. I want to be more than friends with him.. But I couldn’t tell him that. Tears start to fall from my eyes, yet I tell him I am happy for him and he believes me.
My heart complains to me… why can’t he see the love in my eyes? Why can’t he understand that he means more to me than a friend? Why won’t he look at me closer enough to understand my true feelings…. Why? why?

I was just barely thirteen when I met him. It wasn’t love at first sight. He wasn’t that handsome even. But yeah he had such a nice smile. So open and friendly. Maybe that’s what made me like him. After awhile he was a close friend of mine. He told me about his whole life his dreams and everything. I was happy for him. Back then I never realized I was falling in love with him.
It was the last year of school. As usual we met at the gate and I knew something exciting had happened for him. I could see he had stars in his eyes. I asked him “what knocked u out?? You got stars in your eyes” he laughed and shouted “I am in love” and like an electric shock I felt this tingle deep in my heart and I realized I was in love with him.
I had this silly smile on my face Oh God! He is in love with me too!! My heart was shouting. I was still smiling that silly smile waiting for him to say he loved me and suddenly out of nowhere this beautiful girl came and huged him. I was about to shout at her when he huged her back I realized it was the one whom he loved. Like a mirror my heart shattered. He turnd to me and introduced that girl. “ Aysh , meet my girl friend Zena.” then he turned to her and said “Zena this is Aysh, my bestest friend on earth”
So that’s what I am to him.
That was the first of his girlfriends. He meets these girls think it’s the one for him and yet it doesn’t work out and he gets himself broken and it breaks me to see him broken. Yet he never understands my love.

The insistent ringing of the phone wakes me up. I mumble a sleepy “ello!” sobbing on the other end makes my sleep vanish. In a bolt I am up n sitting on the bed. “Hey sweets, what happened?” i asked him and he asks me if he can come see me and I told him “yeh sure he is always welcome” and hung up the phone.

I get out of bed and get ready before he comes and wait for him at the door. The sight of him breaks my heart. His hair was a mess and his eyes blood shot. I give him a hug. He hugs back and tells me Reesh left him. She cheated on him. I let him cry on my shoulder. My heart breaks with every tear that falls from his eyes. I tell him “don’t cry. Maybe she wasn’t the one, you’d find someone who will love you more than anything in the world. Your true love is waiting for you. Don’t waste your tears on some good for nothing betrayer.”

“Just look at me and see in to my soul. Maybe you’d find what you looking for.” My heart says.

an attempt to write a story.... :

2007-04-10T01:25:00.000+06:00

I SHED THESE TEARS

I shed a tear
in the memory of
those lost hopes

I shed a tear
for all those
shattered dreams

I shed a tear
for all those
battles I've lost

I shed a tear
for all the times
I hurt those I love

I shed a tear
for the emptiness
I feel deep within

I shed a tear
to ease this pain
that resides in my heart

I shed a tear
to wash away
the remorse I feel

I shed these tears
one by one, in hope
to smile for real

09/04/07' 18:35

2007-04-09T03:24:00.000+06:00

errrr ...................... wht a day
i hate life.. i hate myself.. n i hate wht i've become... n i hate wht i do to ppl i love n to ppl around me... i hate all of this ...errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

2007-04-08T04:00:00.000+06:00

DECIETFUL WORLD
Feeding my soul the lies around
Meanders waiting the darkness to cloak around
To move within my drenched body
Watching the dark faces in disguise
Make my heart pain n my eyes wet
Down my cheeks the blood from my heart flows
Yet my mind won't give up
For far away I see a shimmering light
And with paining agony and blood tears..
I take another step then another....
Fighting the darkness taking over me
Hoping to reach the white light
To guide my demented soul
Before the devils take over me...

16/06/06’

2007-04-08T01:30:00.000+06:00

WEDDING SEASON!!!!

hmm.. last nite wedding was grt.. had a grt time... so sad i missed the wedding ceremony...:(
i was supposed to be with the bride since thursday nite but due to a terribletummyache i cudn't go.... anyway had a grt tym at the wedding:D

n tonite had another weding of another close friend... met some friends whom i havent seen for a long tym. one of them is about to deliver now... its nice to see everyone getting married and havin kids!!!

oki gtg..... tc

2007-04-06T04:27:00.000+06:00

GREAT DAY
been so long havent updated or posted anything.. jst been a bit too bxy... hopefully by saturday i'll be free again.
a very close friend is getting married so bxy with her wedding things...so happy for her!!

hmm.... its been a grt day today.... i mean yesterday as its now the begining of friday dho...

so thusrdays been a grt day... last day of work for the week... n toay it wasn't bxy.. so no running abt n gettin all worked up.
and it rained!!!after days of unbearable heat it rained or wht sweet bliss it was!.. i simply love rain!
hmm... n then later arnd 11 pm me my sises fahari n aunt went for a walk n we went to the beach... sat on the sand watched the waves kissin the shore playin sweet melodies and feelin the cool breezes...felt really gud! i jst love the beach the waves n the whole scenery!
and then again on the way home it started drizzling n we got a lil wet.. n i loved it.. i love gettin wet in the rain.. bt unfortunately it didn't rain so heavy.. n maybe its my luck. my nose is always kinda blocked now.. so if i had got wet in the rain i'd b feelin worse dho... anyway it was gud to feel those tiny drops of rain!!!
n then when we came home one of my li bros gave us a coffee treat at grafix!
so overall i got to have most of the things i love today... the rain... beach waves n again a bit of rain n then coffee!!!
hmm.. :D

i better get to bed now... got a bxy day ahead... hope to write abt the weddin n all...

gnite

2007-03-31T18:05:00.000+06:00

WICKED GAMES

What a wicked game you play

To make me feel this way

What a wicked thing to do

To let me dream of you

What a wicked thing to say

You never felt this way

What a wicked thing to do

To make me dream of you

And I don't wanna fall in love

[This love is only gonna break your heart]

And I don't want to fall in love

[This love is only gonna break your heart]

piece from the song wicked games by chris isaac.... i jst love these words!!!

2007-03-29T04:34:00.000+06:00

29TH MARCH 2007

hmm... :)

2007-03-29T00:50:00.000+06:00

BABIES.....MOTHERS!!!

hmm.... there i was sittin in my bestfriends room watchin her handling her new born baby... btw she turned one mnth yesterday so tht doesn't really make her a new born i guess... anyway i was jst fascinated watchin my bstfrnd tryin to calm down the lil ones cryin.... n i realized aint it jst heartbreakin to see the lil one cryin n her mommy n us adults dunno whts wrong with her n poor lil one she can't say whts wrong..... :(

and then one other thing fascinated me... ehehe hw my bestfrnd had changed.. we used to be like same size n shared our clothes n all n now here she is a lil chubby n all mommy.. n her hands are so much bigger n she was handlin the baby with so much ease n baby fitted her hands jst perfectly...

its jst amazing n fascinatin to see babies:)

wonder how i'd feel the day i become a mom?!?!

hmm n then comes the second part of my random thots....here i was at home in the toilet on the "ever great thinkin seat" n i thot i shud write this.... n then my mind wandered back to the book i read at my bestfrnds' place.. "chicken soup for mother n daughters' soul" grt book like the other chicken soups..:D

n there were these touchin stories of mothers n daughters.... i'll post some articles from tht book sometimes later....

hmm.... so bak to the topic.... these stories runnin in my mind n i was wonderin my mom's quite different from the moms described in these stories.... bt yet she is special.. i dun remember her nursin me when i was sick... n i guess she wudn't have had time afterall.. she was always deliverin one kid after another n my grandma usually watched us.. anyway m not complainin i knw she love us.... n i've got fond memories of her... the time spent with her in the kitchen is one heartfelt time.... she tells stories of her childhood n other memories of hers... n i jst love her food.......

she taught me smt too.... though she never said in words her life taught me some special lessons of love n life... i jst wanna say i love my mom

n this relation of MOM n KIDS r jst fascinatin!!!!

2007-03-27T17:24:00.000+06:00

HIDE ME FROM ME

hide me from me

for these vacant eyes

searches the world

for the unknown

hide me from me

for these unseen wounds

torment and bruises

my inner soul

hide me from me

for i can't find a cure

for the numbness

that rules my body

hide me from me

for the voices

in my mind drive me

to insanity

hide me from me

for i might hurt

myself in fightin

this loosin battle

hide me from me

for my heartbeats

which make me long

for a companion

hide me from me

for i don't want

to face this world

alone again

hide me from me

and guide my soul

to your doorway

with your smile

26/03/07

2007-03-25T23:43:00.000+06:00

Never say i luv u

If you really don't care

Never talk about feelings

If they aren't really there

Never hold my hand if you're going to break my heart

Never say you're going to

If you aren't planning to start

Never look into my eyes

If all you do is lie

Never say hello

if you really mean goodbye

If you really mean forever

Then say you'll try

Never say forever

Cos forever makes me cry.

smt i came across while browsin... aint it beautiful......

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