WEB OF COMPLICATED FEELINGS

there he waits at my door looking at me but why is it i feel like he dun really see me.... he bids me gnite n hugs me yet i dun feel m home... he says he loves me and i guess it's true yet why is tht he doesn't make me feel complete.... i knw i love him too.. but why does it feel so difficult to open up kick bak n relax around him.... i guess i'll never knw

n there's him i dun really have to say anything to him yet he undertsands me and i feel so carefree n myself when am around him. i dun have to hold back anything i want to say maybe i like him.... or um.... i dunno one thing is sure.... if i dun see him or talk to him i feel moody... and sometimes i feel something in him too. yet he never really says tht..maybe its for the best.. i surely dun wanna loose his friendship.... or maybe he thinks the same... sometimes i find myself thinking of the wht ifs..yet i wonder is it really worth loosin my guy...

hmmm.... wonder why relationships have to be so complicated and difficult.......